Willpower

Since I started this other page (advertisement never hurts, does it ), people started looking at this one again. I can’t help but see the emptiness that’s filling it (clever oxymora eh?) and the fact that I don’t know how to make up for that. I think I’m just not that good with keeping up something consistent. I constantly change subjects and never managed to, as an example, write any kind of a story.

The only kind of texts I keep getting back to are diaries. And I recently found out about this theory about happiness. Somebody, somewhere over the Internet, said that keeping a journal of only good things helps you feel happier.

And, obviously, I tried it.

I found out day after day that I wrote down more and more into my “journal of nice things”. It made me really glad to see how many good things happened to me in one day. And it made time pass by slower too. At the end of the day, I would just spend ten minutes sitting there and thinking back at every enjoyable moment of the past 12 hours. It would go from “Today I got up with the first ring of my alarm clock” to “I realized how lucky I am in my life“. I really recommend trying this.

The problem is, I’m just the kind of person that lacks auto-discipline, and that, as mentioned earlier, doesn’t manage to be consistent with anything. After just a week of keeping this diary, I got kind of bored by it, and just stopped writing stuff down.

If writing down nice things isn’t nice anymore, it kind of defeats the purpose, doesn’t it?

Anyway, all of this was just to say that I think auto-discipline is one of the most useful qualities over-all. I really envy people who have a strong willpower, to be honest.

We probably all were in a situation where we felt like we really wanted or needed to do something, but never actually got around to doing it. I, for example, find it really satisfying to master the maths subjects I study at school, but it requires quite a lot of effort. And after 20 minutes of work, I just think “f*ck it” and leave it all as it is.

I think everyone of us needs some kind of goal to strive for, some kind of dream, of motivation. I have dreams, but they never seem to be important enough in my eyes for me to really fight for them.

I hope all of you out there have a dream worth fighting for, wether it’s getting to marry a beautiful woman or becoming a respected scientist, or just being happy.

Whenever you feel lost, just think about this dream, this very reason you keep on going. (I’m getting all inspirational there ;-)!) And hopefully, you will find your path again.

Take care folks.